Old Thoughts for a New Venue

*I leave a specific online community so that I would not have to sensor myself because of certain people that end up finding me. It is not that I have much to hide but I don't feel that it is appropriate for Junior High students to read some of the things that I have to say. Somehow they always find me. Myspace turned out to be that way so I created a facebook and now facebook has furthered the cycle. So now I have my own blog. Fun times.*

The Glorious Mundane

My life has been ordinary and quite dis-entertaining. I have learned that in times of depression and extreme happiness I have been able to see God but in the boringness of life...I cannot find him. Before I would make problems in my life subconsciously to see God but I cannot do that anymore. I understand how that distorts my view of what it means to be a Christian.

Presently, the only thing that brings me joy is writing. It is prayerful to me. I know that God speaks to me through what I write. My story equates to the story of my life. Currently the issue of perspective and problem solving is being addressed within my story. An emotional crab who sees sideways and a logical halibut who can only see forward are the ones who will lead my main character Sam out of just floating in the ocean to perusing her destiny and redeeming the world. Their unique yet limited perspectives, when combined together, help Sam to continue her journey towards God. I love it.

I have been battling with the idea of perspective. Do I look for God in the beauty that he has made or do I look to be entertained by what the world has made? I hate life when it is boring. I enjoy life when it is exciting. But the question is, is life really boring? No, probably not but we are so over-stimulated that it just appears to be. We have so many distractions available to us that we never have to sit still and know God.

I hope a posture of finding God within the mundane is cultivated within me. I pray that my perspective would be a balance between logic and feelings, that I would be able to see forward and sideways at the same time and that I would grow to be able to sit still and know God.