The Monster

I still hear his chuckle from time to time. It has been ingrained in my head since my youth. As soon as I forget its pitch, I am reminded again. Its sound is unique, sinister yet playful. Its jagged fangs and uncontrollable salivation make his laugh sound like the hissing of a viper. Though I could not say if he is a serpent or not. I have never seen the beast with my own eyes but I know it is there. The shadows hide him. He is the stealthiest of creatures. His only flaw is that he is obsessed with tormenting the weak. It provides a thrill that feeds the deepest part of his dark soul. If it weren't for his laugh I would know nothing of him...

So this is my idea for the first creative writing project. Just had to slap the keys so that I could work on it more later.

fast forward please.

This week has been the bane of my existence. I believe that once it is over my optimism will seep back in. At least now I do not have work for the rest of the week but I do have some homework that I have to pound out tomorrow. What kinda teacher assigns homework on the first day of class...the bane of my existence does...Dagmar!

philosophical bombs

In my world theology class my professor just dropped a philosophical bomb. He had us turn to 4 people and introduce ourselves. After we finished he then began to analyze the situation. He had a good word about overcoming our petty fears.

This past weekend I was reminded of the fears that consume me. I am afraid of this semester, my work schedule and the new direction of IVCF. I am not disappointed or opposed to any of these things but they do scare me. A new found push towards my own independence leaves me worried about these things. I feel like I will have to do them all own my own. I know I wont have to but I cant help but feel that way.

I am waiting till the dust settles so that I can truly know if I can handle all of these things. But until the dust returns to the ground, the blindness it brings will make me uneasy.

I know there is nothing to fear but my heart needs to know that.

May God have mercy on our souls and grant us the strength to live and live well.

Circumstance

I send out my deepest apologies to all of my avid fans. I know that I have not written in awhile.

It seems to me that the end of my summer can reflect the beginning. I would hope not. It was a rough start but all of the elements are the same. I am not so concerned this time. I dont know why. Though I am in the same circumstances, I have grown a lot this summer. I guess circumstance does not dictate behavior...well at least it doesnt have to.

I met someone who seemed to be a person that I could have a relationship with. We met each other at a kick it. Now that I look back on the whole situation, she isnt the girl for me and in so many ways I am not ready to be in a relationship. Or maybe I am not ready to be with someone that I am not suppose to be with. I used to be ready for that all the time but now its not something that I want. I would rather be alone.

Soon

It has been awhile since I have posted anything. I apologize to all of my millions of die hard fans. I guess I can say that I have been a little bit busy. I have not been processing through my thoughts and feelings lately. But I will...soon.