What do I want from you? I cannot answer that question. Do I want the power to say I told you so? Do I want any power at all? Am I looking for an "I love you" or maybe "I hate you and I never want to see you again"?

Closure would be nice but that doesn't come to those who are as confused as I. Sometimes you just have to hold onto simple answers and assume they will explain it all.

I guess its my fault, I was pretty naive to think that my life was beginning to work out. These issues tend to not fix themselves and end so easily. I neglected the true work that needs to be done to have life be full of meaning. I also settled in some ways. I didn't speak my mind enough and "no" should have been said a little more often.

I have also realized that words have little weight to them and that truth can be conditional to circumstance. I just need to be cautious with my heart and realize that my ethereal thoughts do not reflect on reality.

Hahaha, now I feel like I will be 27 the next time I get into a relationship. This notion is based on crude mathematics and a vauge analysis of patterns.

p.s.

Can't blame the big one for this...I did it all on my own.